six years ago, my world shattered.
six years ago, you were the only thing that mattered.
Seeing you laying in that hospital room, so cold.
Never in my life had I seen you look so old.
my resolve shattered and something fell apart inside
my tears I could no longer hide.
Those machines, beeping quietly
beep, beep, beep
my hand gripped yours as you smiled.
I stayed awhile, but it was never enough
I wish I stayed there, laid there and held you as you slept
So many conversations I miss, your voice, your face.
I remember that day so well
Missing you, craving you, has been my own personal hell.
I wish you could’ve met her
I see so much of you in her eyes
but there is a part of me that will never ever return
they buried it with you.
These tears burn my face, my head hurts from holding it in.
remembering to breathe in this wreckage that you buried me in
but I can never blame you.
My love for you has not deminished,
don’t ever think for a second that I don’t miss you
My love, my mama in all respects.
You were my sunrise, my thunderstorm, my windy day
You were my comfort, my safety, my rock
I hope to do you proud daily
but it’s been six long years
I miss you…